Tonight will be six weeks since I stopped drinking and something weird has been going on…
It’s been a week since I blogged. At first I had nothing to write about & then I just could not be bothered. I would think about writing & then I’d just wander off and find something else to do.
Writer’s block? Nope – I don’t think so.
During the last week I’ve been thinking less & less about drinking & quitting. There might even have been a whole day when I didn’t check the Day Counting app on my phone! Rather than being writer’s block, I think ‘not drinking’ has started the process of becoming a little bit normal.
I know this feeling from other areas of my life: I discover something new, I throw myself into it & obsess about it endlessly, I contemplate every option & possibility, I start running out of new content, I think about the same things over & over, the novelty starts to wear off, I get bored, and it becomes ‘normal’.
‘Normal’ doesn’t mean it’s not important – it just means that it’s one of many important things in my life. Rather than celebrating 6 weeks of quitting – I’m a bit more excited by DAY 3 of my holidays! Three luxurious weeks to lounge around and do fun things (without hangovers, guilt or lethargy).
I’ve been catching myself getting distracted by the thought of going to the gym – so I’m going to shut the laptop, have another coffee and do that instead.
I guess being sober isn’t the destination, it’s the means of getting there.