5.5 weeks and I’m doing well. I haven’t really thought about “it” much for the last couple of weeks – which is why last night caught me by surprise.
My partner wasn’t feeling well and he went to sleep early. I was watching TV and cleaning the kitchen when it just crossed my mind that “I could have a drink and nobody would know”.
It wasn’t a powerful thought and it didn’t give me a feeling of compulsion – but it took a while to shake it off. It was a ’sticky thought’.
I started reading some self-help websites – but that just made it feel stronger. So instead I read the news and a bunch of random political opinion pieces. After being engrossed in some other topics the thoughts went away. Distraction is often helpful.
So anyway, last night wasn’t challenging or scary it was just a bit unexpected. My partner will be home late from work tonight so I’ll be home alone for quite a while. Because I feel a bit wobbly today I’ll immerse myself in Brexit opinion pieces and technology/nerd stuff. Whatever – gets me through.