After 8.5 weeks, being sober has started to feel normal and part of my routine. Over the last few weeks I’ve focused on not drinking, running, and adding new activities to fill the gaps left by alcohol.
It has felt exciting and new. BUT. It’s starting to feel like a routine.
One of the reasons I liked alcohol (before it became a problem) was that it added an element of chaos and excitement to my otherwise ‘routine’ life. It was a reality enhancer and I associated it with fun and excitement.
Soon I’ll be going on a USA road-trip. I’m excited and I expect lots of new experiences, challenges and a bit of chaos. I know there will be lots of sober challenges – camping with friends, casinos in Vegas, bars in San Fran, complimentary champagne during a Grand Canyon helicopter tour.
If I’m honest, my biggest concern is camping. I have fond memories of camping, wine, friends, fireplaces and stars. I know that part of me will miss not being ‘part of the group’.
It’s probably good to worry a bit. It lets me visualise, anticipate and rehearse a few situations. I’d rather not come back from holidays without an unwanted travel companions.